Tuesday, May 29

家庭職場

人人都說攪職場小組。回來了的我在家中上班,沒有職場。然而想想我回家的目的,我的家便是我的職場。一如職場,有CEO,有階級,有制度,有unisex洗手間,有隱形基督徒。但裡面講的不是工作效率,沒有年度業績評估,沒有辦公室政治,沒有斟水亞姐,沒有cubicle,也見不到公司設立的理性目標。難道,我們不過是擁有同一個姓氏的個體麼?不是的,我知道媽媽工作之餘也顧及我們的健康,每天為我們切生果。當我一開口要求甚麼,爸爸也立時為我安排。中間可能被他話兩句(甚至幾十句),可是他也是愛我們的。或許,我們這些子女覺得父母不是用自己希望的方式愛自己,便索性不去接納他們,不去回應我們所不應同的愛。就算我們去飲茶付錢,就算我們一次半次與父母閒逛,或幫他們拿重的物件回家,我們有把他們接到我們的comfort zone裡面嗎?還是我們仍舊把他們關閉在我們所追求的一切之外,又把自己鎖在房中,不願被他們打擾?子欲養而親不在--莫非到此話當頭棒喝之時我們才追尋這天賜之緣嗎?孝敬父母是神藉摩西所頒下的十誡裡第一條帶應許的命令。十誡雖是命令,卻是出於神對人的愛。我願主耶穌教我如何去接納別人,更首先要接納父母。

Sunday, May 20

靈淚眼

可能淚腺發炎
但寧可信
靈為你傷心
有看不見的東西
比看得見的更重要

願你
遠離看得見的誘局
學習看不見的愛心
敬畏看不見的真神
願神加力
阿們

Friday, May 18

如何去愛

我們不都懂得如何去愛。

至少,我認為自己不懂得愛。

可能一件小事,尚未弄清原由便抱怨。

心裡自知不對。"理性"站在"真愛"的一方與"私心"角力。

"私心"大概沒有太多安全感,只懂得死握著深愛的不讓其溜走。

"真愛"不計較付出,喜歡與"理性"為伍。情願放棄擁有,也要祝福到底。

"理性"是個中間人,最喜歡說話教訓人。誰聽他的,他便歡喜。誰知他時常被"私心"牽引就走迷。常空口說白話。

在人心中,總有這三種個性。可是,人是一件貪漤的機器。誰領他走,誰便得填滿他那永不飽足的肚子。所以,"真愛"多被埋沒,只是在肚子滿足那一刻才被注視。但主耶穌說:「人活著不是單靠食物,乃是靠 神口裡所出的一切話。」信祂的人以祂為真理,不再單看重使他暫時滿足的食物。"理性"不再單作口腹的奴僕,得以自由,與"真愛"克制人裡面的"私心"。

我也可以因此知道 神是愛、自由與公義。有了耶穌,我可以學作如何愛。如果沒有耶穌,無論理性與否,我知道我永不懂真正的愛。

Thursday, May 17

"Therein will lie your content."

Take two seconds to read the bold lines below that came from Ravi's messge "A Life that Lost Its Focus: Saul" part 2. You'll know whether God is speaking to you through it.
If you define a person in terms of what they do, that's when the existential philosophy takes over, and experience becomes the sole definition of who you are.
I remember that day as I settled before the Lord in the heavens, I wanted to make sure that never again I would try to be somebody else but only be grateful to God for making me the way He has. Follow me my friend? Be grateful to God for the way He has made you. Don’t try to be anybody else. Saul envied David and it was his downfall. As you look into your own life, are you willing to accept yourself with your weaknesses with your deprivations? And I don’t say this to be funny. Some of you may look into the mirror and wonder why God gave you the face He did. I’ve met people like that who come and sit in front of me and weep. I’ve met people who cursed the color with which they were born. I’ve talked to them. I’ve talked to students who’ve sat in my office and wept because they do not think they have the preaching skills that somebody else does and think they are not going to make it. I’ve talked to people who got a deformity that is such a deprivation and a disadvantage to them and they have wanted to clinch their fists and anger before God. One of the greatest sense of releases comes when you can lift your countenance toward the heavens and thank Him for the way He has made you and He has made you distinctively you. Do not try to be a David. Do not try to be a Moses. Do not try to be an Abraham. Do not try to be some great hero before you today. Try to be the kind of person God has made you to be. And therein will lie your content.
Praise the Lord for His Word. You may find Ravi's message here.

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Monday, May 14

始終也是愛我的

在零辰時分,夢迴之間,我所想的是誰?

在深宵之際,牽腸霎那,有主始終愛我。

若自取後果,更說明祢一直聽我的禱告。

那我更要順服順服更要順服。

Sunday, May 13

信徒還是教徒 稱義還是有罪

自以為可以憑信念改善生命的教徒滔滔不絶,只不過是自我中心者慣性的申訴,不過是自我澎漲者傲漫的演說,又企圖以高言大智的話得辨。不要因此等人的氣焰後退,也不用害怕那偽善者口中的火箭。他欺騙別人說自己為公義的原故控訴教會,連自己的良心也欺騙了。他這不憐憫人的,不為他人設想的,說的盡是自以為義的剛愎話。他便因著自己剛硬的心和咀裡自以為有智慧的話語在真道上被絆跌。他不被憐憫,在那日子要與假冒為善的一同被定斷。

願他被帶到主跟前自慚形愧。因害怕主的烈怒便抱頭痛哭。他要痛悔,因為在主面前他所說過的話都要句句供出來。除了主以外,有誰知道他真的悔改嗎?他迫自己的心懊悔,在主跟前承認自知的過犯。他想像主像衣服套在自己身上,不願再走在巴蘭的謬誤中。有誰能明辨他真的願不再犯錯,還是有一隻腳仍踏在往所多瑪、俄摩拉的岔路上,好叫叛逆的火焰再次被燃旺呢?他自己知道自己的身體裡沒有良善,儘然想盡辨法除去敗壞了的心靈和言語,卻廔廔被私念牽動,得罪人和他所畏懼和相信的神。他又時刻以自己的智慧領受地上的道理,越不願意越發是以有限的邏輯和科學的設論去論斷創造主和至高的掌權者。有誰時刻提醒他曾否在腦海中閃過對聖靈不忠的話語?他現在的心驚慌,知道自己並不是不承認主的人,卻因為自己的過犯想藏起來不敢見主面,又想主的審判立刻來到。可是他真的能夠重新造人嗎?有誰他可以倚靠呢?因著自己的罪,作了主的仇敵。可是,作仇敵的也只有從主那裡得醫治重新得蒙悅納。他就只可以真誠地謙卑自己,伏在主公義的寶座前無語。